When do you ever disagree with Southpark...

I came to the conclusion last night that Trey Parker is a political genious, and with the gleaming hope that as people stare unblinkly in front of episodes of South Park and whatever odd creation he comes up with next, they will slowly absorb his political genious and get educated.

When can you ever disagree with Southpark? Let me give you some examples.

Paris Hilton. Yes it is gross and way out there and the magic frog in Mr. Slave's ass may be a bit LSD induced, but the basic message of the show is why is our nations little girls supposed to look up to this unladylike loose side show as a role model? Can't argue with them there.

The Walmart episode. I love walmart and admit I am a shopping addict, besides being hilarious, the show's basic premise is that once again this country is watching the massive chains crowd out the small business and family owned businesses, can't argue there.

So we rented "Team America" last night. And after rolling on the floor while they blew up France, cringing at explicit puppet sex and hiding behind our eyes at way over done puppet vomiting, the brilliance of showcasing in humor the idiocy of actors thinking they are now educated politicians was genious. I just hope the point filters through the 9 position puppet sex extravaganza to the unblinking masses.

I am so weary of hearing 18 year olds speak out against the President and why we have troops over seas.

I almost want to grab them and say get a clue baby, no one likes war. Go look at pictures of NYC after 911 and tell me how you don't like what our nations leaders are doing.

Jeez people, educate yourselves then your kids. READ, explore information, not prime time news or the front paper stories, go get the rest of the pertinent facts, Don Henly wrote that song "Dirty Laundry" for a reason.

Anyone who didn't know Duncan and I are very vocal Republicans just got a clue about now lol.

So my next rant for the day LOL.

I was sitting in the bathtub reading yesterday, I do that alot.... and was thinking I needed to save this book for Derrick and Tressa when I was done. And I was overcome with such huge saddness suddenly. It was because I couldn't fathom a world in which I didn't have a child.

I feel such pity for people who will never know what it is like to have that unconditional love, that fierce sense of protection. A child's face lighting up when you tell them stories of the adventures you had at their age. Someone to share your triumphs with, and someone to share the experiences of paths that you wish you had not taken.

Stuff is nice, extra money is great, traveling is fun, but you know, it is an empty hole of plastic crap compared to the love of your child.

Duncan tells me the baby scars and the little tummy they left me with are sexy. Maybe he is right and not just being sweet. Maybe those scars show a depth of ability to love and nurture that isn't there in a woman without them in his eyes.

I never planned on having kids, I didn't want to bring them into this world because of the violence I had seen through my own eyes, but God sent them, each time a total suprise (laugh) and I have never had one day of regret.

I have gotten to see my son and daughter learn to walk, run and talk. I have gotten to watch then learn, form opinions, find their strengths and create what they see as art.

So what if my carpet has pink plastic beads mashed in it from Tressa this morning, or if Derrick carved his initials in my grandmothers bench, in 20 years I can point to that and say, (hehehe you little monster look what you did, I am going to show your own children).

What is anything we buy, save, learn worth without someone to pass it on too.

And in the midst of all this thought I cried for the people I love who will never know that joy. Some because their bodies won't let them. But I believe those who can't have babies because of medical reasons have a special place in the world, something or someone important they need to be there for to nurture and it will find them.

It is the people who just have no interest or love of children who break my heart. I cannot fathom a female who doesn't want or isnt in some way drawn to children.

I have friends who have gone to other countries to adopt children when they found they couldn't have their own. I applaud their love and want of a child to cherish.

I have friends who when finding they couldn't have kids chose careers helping children as teachers or special needs children.

I worry about my kids, I want them to have the things I couldn't, I want them to excel and to have minimal pain or tradgedy in their lives, but no matter how much strife or stress I have had raising them, I can't fathom how empty life would be without their love.

So today is lunch with Reese, a dear friend who is gay, so not having children of his own dedicated many years of his life to helping troubled teenagers, has earned a degree in family counseling, and gives good marital advice when I am about to smack Duncan in the head.

Maybe sushi....yum.

More later, less ranting.

<3 L